Day 45, 46 - Why I miss my jog? - Take 2

Day 45 - Jog - done.
Day 46 - Jog - missed.

Today I registered for Art of Living course starting from Mar-3. This was something that I have been wanting to do for almost 4-5 years now but somehow never happened. Today I took the action, knowing very well that I have to attend a conference from Mar 4-6 and that I might get delayed to conference. Something from deep inside told me to just jump in and I did!

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Two days back I wrote that it's the feeling of cool breeze that I was missing, that made me give my jog a slip. Yesterday morning I went to jog. But I did not really enjoy it. And today I missed it!

Yesterday night I came back late from my seminar and slept at almost 12:30. Before sleeping I was feeling tired and was thinking if I could manage next day's jog. Today morning I got up at 5:30 as alarm rang. I was not at all feeling like going to jog. So I went out in my balcony to feel the cool air and I did feel it. Yet it was not motivating enough to continue. I thought that may be it was the heat or may be the fan running all the night that is making me feel tired and I came back and slept off.

Today evening I was thinking as to why I did not go to jog and why I did not enjoy my jog yesterday. I looked at what made my day-before-yesterday's (Wednesday) jog so enjoyable that I did not have yesterday. I saw one thing. Tuesday evening before sleeping I was feeling very light. I had a feeling of accomplishment, a sense of leaving nothing incomplete. And that gave me the freshness for Wednesday. Whereas both yesterday and day before that I was not satisfied with my work.

I thought 'May be this feeling of incompleteness is at the source'. It's not that everyday I will complete all the work and feel being completely accomplished. But me distinguishing the source of why I was not feeling like jogging gave me an access. And as I write this, even today I did not complete what I set out to, in fact I did hardly anything. Still I am all charged up for tomorrow's jog. I can feel the difference between yesterday night and tonight. I hope this time I got it right :)