Work is Fun and Joy!

2008 was an un-workable year, okay I accept, not just unworkable, rather a bad year - both in personal life and work life. Nothing really worked - except for my last two vacations. Relatively, work wise it was very bad. I produced no great results - something I had been consistently doing in the past.

A work was assigned to me, where I did not have much choice. I said let me work on it and put in hard work. Many a times I put in sincere efforts to make it work. But I knew that my heart was not in it. And I never got to know why that was so. I gave many convincing reasons as to why there are no results - ranging from - users of this product don't like this to this is not cool to even doubting if I was incapable to do this. But I did not communicate straight that I didn't want to do it. I was not ready for the consequences. I thought somehow things will work out for themselves. In simple words I did not take responsibility for this.

The effect was that there were no results. Since there were no results I started feeling guilty and started avoiding the people I was answerable to. I gave reasons to miss the meetings/calls. I made others wrong. That added more guilt. Work became a drag. I started doubting myself. Nothing in life was interesting. There was absolutely no fulfillment, happiness and peace of mind.

Yesterday when I put myself 100% responsible for this I saw that actually I felt that the work was thrusted upon my against my wish. It came as 'you have no choice' and that I was stubborn to work and put my soul into it. I was upto 'Look I told you I can't do it. And still you gave me. Face it. No results' !

The moment I got present to this blindspot, I invented the possibility of work being Fun and Joy. I was so much called into it. And also I realized that I can create Fun and Joy around this and spread it to all the people around.

If work is Fun and Joy, there is no significance attached to it. And hence no stress and I can be straight with people and be in open communication. So, Fun and Joy it is!!!